What the royal shitballs are you on about?! Grinding creates sparks from friction, have you never used a damn anglegrinder?

It is THE most relevant to your problem. I have friends like you, they are miserable but never change anything about themselves to improve their life. I was the same, went to therapy, opened up and untangled the bullshit that was my brain. Takes effort man.

You see the replies don’t you? There is more than one person pointing at the problem.