I grew up in a rough household. We had holes punched into the walls, doors torn off the frames, my siblings and I saw regular abuse, and as a kid I constantly felt like I had to do things to keep the family held together.

I felt like I was treated by my parents as a servant. They constantly threw away anything I remotely liked, and continued stacking chores on me, especially those that weren’t my own mess. They gave me the boot shortly before graduation, and long story short, I finally got a place for myself after years of effort.

I just can’t shake this feeling though that things are painfully unfair. Like you escape hell after all these years, and the first thing expected from you is to find a job. I get it, you need to work to make money and pay the rent and bills but… why me? Why after all this time of putting up with the crap you have instead of being a kid are you just expected to step in line like everyone else when you never got that opportunity to find who you are and simply enjoy life for what it is.

I don’t know, is this lazy? It’s not that I don’t want to work, but why can’t I be a kid? Why can’t I have some time to reclaim what all was taken from me and have some time to enjoy myself rather than grasp at random short memories I had before I was 5? Everyone else got it, why not me?

I don’t know, am I just rambling about nothing?

  • ERROR: Earth.exe has crashed@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
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    Jobs are just for money. Don’t worry about the “contribution to society” propaganda. They are using you.

    Its okay to feel like you don’t want to work, that’s fine. The oligarchs around the world baredy do any work and exploit the average wave-slave to fullfill their luxurious life. Don’t feel guilty for feeling that way. However, do realize that, while this capitalistic machine runs, you kinda have to perform “work” to obtain resources for survival (aka: “money”). It’s not fair, it’s the cards we get dealt with.

    The real “contribution” would be to tear down the system of oppression and advance human rights, not feeding an arbitrary desire of the oligarchs to grow their assets. That is not contribution, that is being a willing wage-slave.

    Life is not fair, its up to the people to make it fair, by any means necessary.

    “A Riot is the Language of the Unheard” -Martin Luther King Jr.

    “When peaceful revolution becomes impossible, violent revolution become inevitable” - US President John F. Kennedy

    So you either resist, or you comply and get a job. It is what it is.

    Committing a “crime” like shoplifting is a way of resistance, but it all depends on what your moral compass allows. Don’t kid yourself, the only reason why people don’t just rob the corporate chains is the fear of consequences (from the legal system).

    So, if you are willing to take your chances and resist, go ahead. I’m not advocating crime, just saying that it is an option.

    But even a life of crime is still technically a “job”, abeit an unlawful one.

    You can’t really do nothing and survive. Either legal or illegal methods, you gotta pick one way to acquire resources.

    Sorry if this is incoherent, I’m struggling with similar issues as you. Good luck.

    Edit: TLDR: Just do the minimum possible to survive, don’t overwork yourself.