I’ve been there. Always been awkward, always struggled with it, always had complex emotions about it. I can confirm though what the previous person said: building yourself up as someone with your own rich world that people would be interested in, that’s the healthiest way. You should try as much as possible to do this, I know it’s hard. I know you just feel like it’s never your turn. But you have to try. I’ve never met anyone on dating apps but that’s also because I used to go out a lot for specifically this reason. But pubs and clubs aren’t exactly healthy, it lead more to wasted years, wasted money, and meaningless hookups that left me just as miserable… It was eventually when I took up traveling with organized groups (where I could socialize with like-minded strangers around a healthy topic that we had in common) that I met my current partner.