Not living up to my own potential.
I’ve led a pretty uneventful life with few, if any, accolades. I know that I actually have the capacity to be excellent in certain regards, but I can’t seem to force myself to actually put in the work. Doesn’t help that I’ve been called lazy my entire life.
Some therapists seem to think a “fear of success” is part of the pathology but I don’t agree. I’ve been extremely intimate with failure my entire life, success is like the one thing I’ve never had and am craving daily.
Professionally and creatively.
To elaborate, I have two degrees that I’ve never ended up using and I’ve been working in customer service/tech support for the past twenty years. I’ve been at my current company in my current role for a full decade, and the lack of upward mobility is getting to me.
Not living up to my own potential. I’ve led a pretty uneventful life with few, if any, accolades. I know that I actually have the capacity to be excellent in certain regards, but I can’t seem to force myself to actually put in the work. Doesn’t help that I’ve been called lazy my entire life. Some therapists seem to think a “fear of success” is part of the pathology but I don’t agree. I’ve been extremely intimate with failure my entire life, success is like the one thing I’ve never had and am craving daily.
I feel you.
In what regards?
Professionally and creatively. To elaborate, I have two degrees that I’ve never ended up using and I’ve been working in customer service/tech support for the past twenty years. I’ve been at my current company in my current role for a full decade, and the lack of upward mobility is getting to me.