I did get messed up by some anxiety and have these thoughts rolling through my head so I’ll leave it at cosmic horror warning.
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I’m not religious but I have thoughts about experiencing consciousness and what it is. I say that consciousness is independent of memory because we forget, clearly dependent on our physical body, etc. generally I do say that we don’t know consciousness so maybe it can be reconstructed (in the can’t rule out the possibility way)
So I can see scenarios were my conscious could pop into existence without my memories after I die (as I’m writing this I realized that’s nothing to fear).
I am trying to adopt healthier mindset of looking at everything in life as a quest, new things are a call to action, and that it’s okay if everything I do amounts to little in x number of years (worked out okay for ozymandias, right?).
Im probably just rambling because my life has got boring and monotonous along with actual fear of American politics.
Sort of, not in a religious way.
Like I don’t think there will be anything special that you get to keep with you, the “soul” is just a vessel to experience things, nothing special about it. As in: There aren’t any hero stories, no "dragon reborn"s, no Karma. Just randomness. This moment, you are a human, when you die, your next moments could be a bug crawling next to you when you died, or newborn kitten to a pregnant cat in your backyard, or a cockroach about to get stepped on. Then some time again, you will be another human. Or perhaps proximity doesn’t matter and you could be born on some alien planet far away. There is no concious god, its just pure randomness.
As if you are an immortal camera and your body is the microSD card adaptor, your memories are the microSD card, your experiences are just what the camera sees.
Sorry if my beliefs are silly, but I think there is some part of living beings that current level of technology cant quite measure yet. I think it has something to do with mass energy equivalence, maybe when we die, we become some energy that just bounces around until we become something else.
Its like people used to think the Earth orbited the sun. People used to not be able to see germs, or atoms, then we went from seeing atoms, to protons, electrons, then we say those even smaller parts.
Perhaps there is something that can’t be measured yet. Perhaps it may never be able to be measured.
The way I see it:
It’s either:
[1] Nonexistence --> I exist --> Nonexistence (and never exist again)
Or
[2] Nonexistence --> I exist --> Nonexistence --> I exist again (repeat for a long time, possibly forever)
Option one breaks my brain, so I just choose to go with option 2 to keep my sanity.
Maybe is just my monkey brain being silly, idk, but our minds have to invent these little stories to keep ourself sane. We as non-omniscient beings cannot objectively observe the universe, is all just biased subjective interpretations that are unique to us.
But regardless, this is the only chance I get to experience “this” life, “next” time I might be the bug the gets crushed by a neighbor that “this” life used to live with. So um… yea, thanks for coming to my ted talk
Take it sleezy 🤷♂️
🌌 (Your next life will be on a planet in a solar system with 3 suns, good luck with the chaotic eras lol)
(I must sound so stupid right? Given that this is Lemmy and eveyone here is an Atheist. Its fine, just leave my monkey brain believe its weird theories 😅)