Asking because I remember telling my mom I wanna kms and she got upset and told me she regret giving birth to me.
Later when confronted, she told me she only said it because she was angry, that she didn’t mean it.
Nowadays she tells me she loves me (I mean she always told me she loved me, but then there are a lot of memories of me getting yelled at… so idk… wtf), that everyone in my family loves me (really mom? pretty sure my brother hates me to death).
Bipolar much?
(Pls don’t spam comments with “see a therapist”, working on it… healthcare system sucks to navigate)
I’ve learned most people have no control. And life as it’s projected and taught from birth really isn’t what life is like. Nobody tells the truth of what existence really is.
…and a lot of people have kids before they ever tune in to their existence and understand it, nevermind the reality that surrounds them outside their extreme microcosms. It’s sad.
Not many people really mean to live as they do. Many of us are not able to be who we are supposed to be due to the way the structure of our society and systems work.