Coming home too damn tired to do anything else, even including chores, is top for me.
I have dishes lying around, laundry needing to be done at somepoint, some extra small tasks to do. But, trying to go ‘above and beyond’ for a shitty job just leaves you with nothing left to do them, having to waste time off to finally do them.
I’m in a building that’s not my home, for 8 hours (used to have some days where it was 10 hours), a night. Where my company tries to tell me to treat their building that I work in, as a second home. Dealing with all of these tasks that ultimately mean nothing in the grand scheme of things. Dealing with people who conveniently forget a lot of the time, as to how to be a normal human being and they being at your expense.
And in addition to coming home too damn tired to do anything else, I’m sometimes worrying if what I’m making now for however many hours, is enough to cover everything I need to have or want to have.
I’ve had countless shitty jobs and shitty bosses. Now I’m in charge of a team and, as a product of who I am and my own lived experiences, I treat them fairly and with a degree of kindness and sympathy that I’ve never really had from my former bosses.
I overlook a lot of the petty paperwork and have various on-going deals with staff whereby I’m extremely flexible and they reciprocate by often going the extra mile for me. Our team mostly runs well and my own manager is pleased.
However, I occasionally feel unappreciated by 1 or 2 staff who have been there so long that they’ve forgotten how things could be if I was inflexible, stuck strictly to the rules and came down on them a lot harder - which an other boss could easily do.
I suspect that some mistake my kindness for weakness, even though I’ve always spoken with authority and plainly, albeit in private to those that have needed it.
Truth is we’re local gov, the perks are good, as is the job security, but there’s an element of complacency and an awareness that you have to do a lot wrong to get fired - and it’s a long process.
So yeah, I mostly don’t mind my job, but I resent staff who haven’t had it as bad as I have in the past and don’t seem to understand that their decent conditions are because of who I am, and are not really the norm in other departments.