• morto@piefed.social
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    I also feel like evrything is so difficult, and I wonder how people can do stuff. It feels like time pass faster for me. I struggle with basic stuff and lose so much time trying to simply do my basic survival, that when I’m finally ready to do something for the day, it’s already in the afternoon. Fells like something is deeply wrong with me

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      That sounds like me during my decades of raw dogging ADHD and a bouquet of comorbidities.

      It can still be that way for me, but with medication and vigilance and mindfulness and constantly trying to reverse engineer my brain/body’s needs, I had a much more productive 2025 than previous years. (productive at the things I care about, not just becoming a good cog in the machine at work)

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        constantly trying to reverse engineer my brain/body’s needs,

        Would you mind talking a bit more about that part? How does that work for you?

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      Legitimate, if you have not already and have access, see a doctor about ADHD. You sound a lot like me and this is what I was diagnosed with when I described these symptoms to a psychiatrist. I’m also autistic but these symptoms don’t sound like autism.

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      Fells like something is deeply wrong with me

      I don’t have an answer, but I can tell you, you are not alone in that feeling.

      And remember, if people make you feel like you’re not enough, there’s a good chance they’re just dealing with their own bullshit in their own head.

      It doesn’t make it okay, but I sometimes find it comforting to remember.

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      I feel that too. I don’t think that there’s something wrong with you. There’s something wrong with society. Nobody does things best the same way, and society has a heavy preference for a specific way of doing things.

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        I agree, but I recognize that not all of my struggle comes from society. Some basic things, like having to eat, are way too demanding for me. It’s complicated to talk about this online, because everyone will try to identify themselves somehow, but some of my experiences will differ too much from how people manage to live and do stuff. a couple of years ago, I tried living by my own, and ended up being hospitalized, because I wasn’t taking care of myself. Sometimes, I spend 2 of 3 days barely eating anything, because there was no more food and I had to do groceries. I would skip many meals often, because preparing things took so much from me. My hygiene got poor, because I didn’t manage to clean stuff so often. When I had to work, The day was lost, and I barely could do something else for the day. I ended up being retired for medical reasons (it’s hard to explain this to people from other countries, but I live from government benefits since then. Might look like a good thing, but it took a heavy psychological toll on me, because I wanted to do something, have a career of some sort). I ended having to move back to living with my mom, and that feels really shameful, while I also lost the minimal freedom I acquired,

        Sorry for writing too much,

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      I feel you and I’m surprised how many like-minded people here are. Just in case: have you checked spoon theory? Is there’s something wrong with you and your resources?

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        have you checked spoon theory?

        Just checked it. Seems interesting. It’s pretty much how I get overwhelmed by the simple survival stuff and end up not managing to do other things…

        Is there’s something wrong with you and your resources?

        What do you mean by that?

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          You say something is wrong with you. Not having enough resources to get through the day is not normal. I’m in therapy because of this. Don’t get me wrong, I won’t diagnose anyone but your message spoke to me and if it is Bad enough for you it might be worth going to the doctor and check if your brain might lack something that other people have. Chemistry can heavily influence your life.

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            Oh, I see. I had a really bad experience with the multiple doctors and therapists I’ve been, so I’m very resistant to do it again these days… things are less bad without the treatment and medications the gave me